"I am not a morning person."
A statement I have shared 1,001 times, at a minimum.
I set my alarm for 6:30am today. Normal for some, late for others, early for me.
I love to sleep. I love staying up late. (I get my best To Do lists drafted after 11pm — I swear!)
While I love staying cozy in bed, I simultaneously don't love rushing into the work day. Something I admittedly do all too often. Running a business and serving in the capacity that I do throughout various organizations demands a lot of my time, energy, and focus. That doesn't include the time, energy, and focus that is also given to family, my partner, friends, and my fur babies.
The reality is, after all is said and done each day, I am left with little to no time, energy, and focus for myself. That always tends to be the case, right?
We often struggle the most with giving ourselves what we offer other people, day in and day out.
Over time, this can leave us feeling burned out and disconnected from ourselves, and from why we choose to do what we do.
It takes one choice to put yourself on a path of change, on a path towards something else.
While I was lying in bed last night, I opened the studio BE platform to review their offerings for today. I have not been consistently practicing. I have not been consistently mindful. (I forgive myself.)
I saw a familiar name on the LIVE course schedule: Bjarni Nermoe - A 7:00AM Rise Up! Power Vinyasa class.
This is it.
This is my one choice.
The choice that will put me on a different path.
I set my alarm for 6:30AM, half convinced I would hit snooze until 8:00AM if I am being completely honest. No one would know I didn't show up because no one knew what I had chosen to do.
That is not true. I would know.
Me. Myself. I.
I would be the one to live through another Friday knowing I did not show up for myself. And somehow, that felt a lot harder to swallow.
I eventually fell asleep and at 6:30AM, I hit snooze. Once.
Five minutes later, beep, beep, beep. I was awake. I pulled myself out of bed. I setup my yoga mat.
I was committing. I was choosing me.
I am a person who needs, craves, and deserves her own love and commitment. I am a person and I need me to show up every once in a while.
I am who I believe I am.
"Today, I am a morning person."
Guest post by Holly Pilcavage, CEO of Coal Creative and studio BE practitioner
Feature photo by Di Studio/Adobe Stock